| Perils of a Damsel |

I am complex in every way, yet you love me, accept my flaws and all that's why I love you

2009-03-30T22:43:00.000-07:00

Hiyaa! The damsel resurrects.

This place is not yet a dead spot.
I almost buried my draft entries for a couple of months.

I guess i've been out for a two months or more. Good gracious, thank God I'm done with my hell term, and glad to announce that I had good grades. After that mind cracking term, I was obliged to take up summer class and enroll two social science subjects, which were Sociology and the Philippine Constitution. I thought it would be that easy because these are only minor subjects. But i was wrong. I'm undergoing a lot of pressure with these subjects, i mean, I have to memorize and memorize then analyze, and last.. memorize. That's crap, boo me.

Well actually, I wasn't only busy with school related works, i also found some things to spend my time earning moolah. haha. Yep, you're damsel is not only a student but also a part time entrepreneur. Speaking of money, so, what's the business? Nothing special, really. I just have this small online shop. I never visioned myself in a business managing career, that's why I took a computer related course, but here I am, taking chances. I don't know why. It just started as a sort of curiosity until it grew and developed into a hobby.

I officialy opened my online shop last March 2009, on the 9th to be exact. My family and friends thought that was cool. Earning money when you're just sitting in front of your laptop. Yes, that's quite easy to look at.. FOR THEM. But for me? this is kind of serious and time consuming.

I sell different stuffs. Of course, once a client gets an order, you must ship the items through a courier service. That's one of the time consumers, the effort of delivering the items. My another service is layout-ing (if that's the term). Most of multiply sellers or even ordinary people doesn't know that much about tweaking multiply layouts, that's why I took the chance of customizing layouts with a minimal fee. And it's great and rewarding that I had lots of clients who trusted my works. Gee.

In two months now, I already earned through this online business, not that big enough but just right, what's important is that it helped me a lot. Not only financially but also socially, as well as in my creativity.

If you're interested to see, click on this link: BeeFAB! Online Shop and Designs

Okayy, so much of this. I just gave you an update of what's really happening to me in the past couple of weeks. I still have two examinations tomorrow and I haven't reviewed enough yet. So, bye guys and til my next update.

[xi] Wish me luck for tomorrow.
[xii] Finals next week, pressure on the go.

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes I'll bring you tomorrow let me see you smile

2009-02-26T04:18:00.001-08:00

Headache.

My braincells are scattered and I can't make them work straight. I'm abash as of the moment. Damn. I don't want to lose the opportunity of blogging though. This is one of my numbered spare times to have 'cause in a short time, I cannot visit my blogger frequently. Thesis mode, again. Consequences of being an IT student, nonstop system defenses.

Okay, it's time for the braincells to get back on work.

Entry coming up in 3..2..1..

This morning, 9am to be exact, I was on my way to school - the usual. But this time, it's another story, ain't a good one. Here's how my stupidity goes.

I was about to ride a jeepney almost full with passengers. So the tendency was to sit at the back most corner. When I got halfway in, i didn't notice a round fluorescent light(is there even a round fluorescent? heck, making my own term). So your conclusion? Yea, the stupid me got her head struck that friggin' light and my hair got caught by it causing a little skin/scalp scraped off and a handful of hair got pulled off. At first, it's not really that painful, but when I saw blood on my fingers I can't help but sob right there and there at my place. Imagine the emotion, the fear, the chagrin, pain and shock.

When I arrived at school, I headed to the clinic and had my injury cured. I was touched with my close friends who were very supportive and checked me at the clinic to ask my condition. I can no longer contain my emotions and started to sob again. I don't know why. I had this theory on mind, when something unusual happened either physical or emotional and people around had their full attention on you, concerned, that triggers the emotion and you get too sensitive causing you to act so weird. Yes, that includes crying.

Creepy isn't it? Yes, that's exactly the term for my literal story. Even my friends find it dreadful to hear my eerie story.

I think it's a slap on the wrist. I can never be too complacent. Death is certain, with its own timing of arrival. Of course, the accident that happened to me this morning was just a minor accident but it's never far from being worst. Everyday there are lot of things that may happen to me and I should always be prepared for it, no matter how big or small it is.

Peeking on the bright side, there's also an advantage of being a prone-accident person, you'll get to know who are those people that really value you and worries about your difficult situation. I call them genuine friends. I realized many more things, which were difficult to elaborate.

My condition, if you may ask, so aside from a bit headache, i'm definitely a-ok now. Yeah, a little disinfectant and cleansing will do for a minor injury like this.

Be guided,

[xi] Guide no. 1, always remember to be cautious on riding passenger jeepneys!
[xii] Bio exam tomorrow, I have no notes. Great. Guide no.2, always take down notes no matter how boring the class becomes.
[xiii] Guide no. 3, never procrastinate. I've forgot to do random things and i have to rush those things now. gosh.

These precautions would be of great help. Good night! :)

Little Taste of Heaven

2009-02-15T06:09:00.000-08:00

I've never been this quite in a state-of-high until you came.
I've never known myself until you made me figure out the other side of me.
I've never felt so exceptional until you made me realize my worth.
I've never been so helplessly in love until you accidentally trip on my heart's doorstep.
No, it's no accident, perhaps it was God's will for us.
And I must say, i'm loving the idea of it, truly heartfelt.
-Kham S.

Cheers! This is the first time i composed a love poem out of emotion, ever. HAHA. Gawd. The mushy side of me, funny huh. I made several poems before but those were made out of necessity, not emotion. lol. Okay okay, why did I create a poem? Nothing, really. I'm just happy. It shows. Don't you think?

So I just gave you a hint about my valentine status. haha. Yes, I just had a great Hearts day, so far. Though I didn't received a bouquet of roses nor a bunch of chocolates, that doesn't really matter with me, I got the hang of it. As long as the object of affection's with you, at least you won't count these things anymore. You'd just look forward for every precious time he's by your side, nothing else can compare the high you can get from it. One thing i'm sure of, I can never let go this kind of high out of my system. That would be nice.

Of course, ups and downs are never out of the scene but it takes a lot of effort to let go and give up a relationship secured by genuine love. Where did I got those? I don't know either.

Haha. Enough said.

Maan, speaking of ups and downs, I had another frustration after a heart melting valentine. I'm loaded with paper works. I'm glad frustrations and accomplishments managed to go hand in hand. Imagine, I wrote this very long chapter two of my thick math book. I even consumed two fillers (22 pages to sum it all up) in more or less than 10 hours of jotting down. Imagine the pangs of pain in my hand, include my head. sigh. That professor's the very first person to give me a callous on my finger. Thanks to my mom, she encouraged me. "There may be a reason why she gave you those task. Just enjoy your work, don't endure", she added.

Speaking of my mom, I bought her a red blouse with a love letter card yesterday, hearts day. I can't imagine that I did that. HAHA. She was absolutely surprised and much happy to the extent that she shared that good news to everyone! Well, can't blame her. That's really UNUSUAL of me. But i would definitely get the hang of it soon. I'll be often nice and sweet to her this time.

Okay, I need to drag my ass to bed now. My groupmates in my Filipino class announced that we should be early tomorrow for the practice. Practice of a folk dance, great! Oh how I hate dancing, sigh. Cut me some slack on that.

I'd be updating this blog again soon. I think I forgot lots of things to share.
My brain's slowing down as of the moment. Sleep deprivation sucks.

Good day people!
:)

I Lost More Than Virginity

2009-02-11T01:56:00.000-08:00

I got this forwarded email from my mom, which i found interesting. Might as well share it with you guys. This is a nice article, though I don't know the author. I guess she's the one stated in the article. I hope the author didn't mind that I've posted her work here :)

I Lost More Than Virginity

“We got the test back yesterday,” she said. “Unfortunately, the result was positive.”

Silence. The room spun wildly. It seemed to be darkening and closing in. I struggled to listen to what she was saying, “I’m very sorry. There are several options and we need to discuss them. There’s adoption, or you could keep the baby yourself. Perhaps your parents will bring up the child.”

We discussed the options, but there didn’t seem to be any alternative to abortion. Both having been raised in Christian homes, we knew that the guilt involved would haunt us forever. But that seemed a small price to pay for the serenity of our parents. For their sanity, their reputation.

It took a lot of arranging and lying – even to the extent of obtaining a false Medicare card. But finally, I found myself in an OB-Gyne’s office in a neighboring town.

“Cynthia Romualdez.” It was hard to remember my false identity. “Cynthia Romualdez next, please.” The third time the name was repeated, I woke from my nervous stupor. Embarrassed, I rushed into the doctor’s office.

Finally, everything came out. Looking back, I was terribly naive. But the doctor was kind and sympathetic. She examined me – itself a painful experience, and commented that the uterus seemed too small for a 10-week pregnancy. She told me that she wanted to take another blood test before considering abortion.

It was small comfort, but raised my hopes. Returning home, I again fasted and prayed. I promised God that if He would only abort the child naturally, then I’d never sin again. A rash promise.

Two days later, I rang for the results. The test was negative. I cried and cried. All the pent-up emotion came out. For the first time in weeks, I slept soundly and awoke with the desire to live.

Why am I sharing this painful experience? Well, today I’m 19 years old. You often hear parents, preachers, teachers, warning about the danger of premarital sex. They often cite the current epidemic, AIDS, as prime evidence against this behavior.

But I wonder. Do they really know? Do they really know what it costs a girl in the 1990s – even in a steady relationship? Let me tell you what it cost me.

I lost my closest friend – with whom I had shared everything. We had shared our dreams for family, our plans for future careers, and for personal development.

Today, I hardly know that guy. He has fallen easily into another steady relationship. It hurts to even think about it – although I could never marry him. He’s not my type. We’ve both matured into two entirely different people in the past three years. We no longer share the same goals and interests.

I lost my family – No, they didn’t reject me. To this day, I don’t even know if they have heard my story. In an effort to protect them, I withheld the truth. First, with just little white lies. But eventually it was a life of total deceit. A once happy and open relationship with my parents soured. It is only in the past few months that we have been able to talk again.

I lost my self identity and my self-respect – I had always been an honest person – sometimes to the point of being tactless. And to live with a double life played havoc with my self-esteem. I began to doubt how genuine I was. I lost my faith in people.

I no longer look forward to marriage - I’m scared. Scared that I will never be able to give myself unreservedly again. Scared that will be unable to meet my partner’s need. Rationally, I know what I am wrong. Love-making for me became love-breaking.

I’ve lost the one fight that could have shown my future husband that I was giving him all – something special that was his alone, and that could never belong to another man on earth.

There are many other losses – the time that could have been spent meeting lots of other guys. Friends who became frustrated with what seemed an inexplicable morbidity. Emotional energy that drained me mentally and physically. My good grades became a thing of the past. And I possibly lost my baby.

I’m not sharing this to make a moral judgment on premarital sex. I just want to help others my own age to take an enlightened look into what it could cost them.

[xi] I'm not acting too religious nor being a sinless hypocrite here. I'm not pointing to someone else as well. Let's say, I just find it rewarding to give ALL for my future lifetime partner. And when I say all, it includes my BEST. Please don't get me wrong :)

Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame

2009-02-10T02:52:00.000-08:00

Life is too short to live.
To sudden, to quick,
like a vapor indeed.
When life meets death,
the latter chooses none.
-Kham S.

Yesterday was such a drag - until today.

Monday(02/09), at around 7 in the morning, we went to Bulacan to attend a close family friend's funeral. Obviously, i was absent for two consecutive days. I've missed lots of school-related stuffs definitely, darn. I'm lazy enough to torture my brain cells tomorrow, again. Okay, going back. We first went to our previous home at Bulacan and neighbor friend. After that, we went to my future mom-in-law's parlor. HAHA. It's a joke. Then, my bff asked for help about some photoshop stuffs so I went to their house since 8pm would be the start of the funeral service. I missed north so much, especially those people who are dear to my heart. My bff and I had an argument, it's a petty fight but we dealt with the subject seriously.

This morning, everybody prepared for the burial. It's such a heartbreaking view. I don't know what to feel, everything's mixed up. I felt pity for the mother and two daughters left behind by the late father. The eldest daughter was my best friend. Yes, it's was, and it's a long story to tell. The mother is my mom's close friend. I've been attached to their family way back when I was in my elementary years.

I'd never seen her weep like this before, i remember her as a funny, witty person. She keeps on repeating "i love you, loving" and other assurances that they will be alright though he's gone. Tough sight. Almost everyone's in the verge of crying. The pain and pity though I know they can get through it, but a family without a father will be difficult. And of course, i didn't escape that time from being a cry-baby, again. I just can't help not to shed tears at that very moment. My heart's not yet tough enough to face real life dramas or even hardcore TV dramas.

Seeing others sorrow is an added burden to me. I felt bad for them or more than, a heartbreak. Everyone's sorrowful yet we're all rejoicing. One of life's paradoxes. We all grieve for the lost of a friend's presence but we're rejoicing because we know he's heaven bound. He's not dead, he's just sleeping. Someday, we'll all meet again, soon. I know he found a haven of rest, a real peace in God's place.

We'll miss you sir Jeff.
Jeff Sanguir, born 1964 - died 2009

Those simple words hit so hard they turned my whole world upside down

2009-02-06T07:10:00.000-08:00

February 6, 2009 - 6pm, sad to announce but my close friend's dad had already passed away this afternoon. A heartbreaking thing that everyone dreaded to happen happened. What a miserable news to hear. I'd never imagine this very day would come too early. So surprising death came all of a sudden, too quick. Once death knocks on your door you have no options, no way out but to accept the unwanted fact. Ahh, life and its surprises.

Nonetheless, I'm glad he now found a haven of rest. It's never the end, it's just a start of his new life up there, heaven bound for sure. There are things we don't want to happen, but no matter how we try to prevent it, sadly, life has its own way where there is no choice than comply. Life and its surprises.

[edit]

Mom and I decided to go to Bulacan on monday to sympathize with our close family friends. We'll be staying there for two days. It only means, I'll be absent on school for those two days, it doesn't matter though. Since I have no more examinations on my 5 courses (subjects), I think it's alright to excuse myself from class, and besides, I have a valid reason to be excused perhaps. Comforting a friend is much better than being stuck at the classroom hoping that every stinking minute pass by quickly. I know, she needs a friend now.

Though we had a lot of misunderstandings before, we once been good best buddies and I can't changed that fact, that I'm still a friend willing to lend her my helping hands. I still love her inspite of the mishaps and bitter words thrown before. All she needs now is comfort, a warm friendly hug and a sincere concern. That's a lot easier to do than solve math problems at school, isn't it? My point is, I can do it and personal ego has no room for us this time. I hope.

Death is just everywhere, it is certain.

[xi] Leaving internet for two days.
[xii] I hope to bring home a sensible update.

Inspire me with the smile like glow on your pretty face

2009-02-02T05:22:00.000-08:00

February 2, 2009 - 3:00 am, I've been awakened by my mom in the middle of the night. The reason? She got a text message from our family friend, actually, my ex-best friend's family. At 5:00 am, I heard mom talking to her friend over the phone (my friend's mom). Her husband is now currently on ICU and the condition is in 50:50. Sigh. That's a bad news, a bad news to begin my day. My mom went to the hospital (Chinese Gen. Hospital) first thing in the morning. I wanted to come with her but because of my stupid examinations today, i wasn't able. Though I had some misunderstandings before with my ex-best friend, her family never showed any sign of maltreatment to me. Her sister and I never cease of exchanging taunts, her mom's so sweet and her dad's too kind.

My friend (since childhood) and I we're best of friends before and I'm always at their house and vice versa. I used to have a sleepover there once in a while. I used to chitchat with her. I used to sit with her, her sister, and her dad in front of the TV set watching movies. I used to eat with them during meal times. I used to play with their dog though i'm afraid of cuddling it. Her mom and dad used to crack up some jokes and we'll all burst out laughing, I see them as a happy, loving, strong family. Most of all, I used to miss those times.

If you're curious of her dad's condition, well, her dad has an asthma and then had a thyroid problem (I think he already had this for years). Another thing was his intake of steroids without doctor's prescription. Everything worsen when his thyroid goes down to his heart and the kidney's not responding anymore. He needs a dialysis but because his blood pressure collapse, dialysis would be a risk. I don't know about further details, all I know is that his status is not in a great condition.

I placed myself on their situation and i don't think I can take it, to see my father breathing heavily with a life-support machine on his body, I can't. Their dad is the breadwinner, so as my father. Their mom is a housewife, and so as my mother. If ever their dad passed away (knock on wood), i'm not sure how will they move on aside from the emotional struggle, and how about their financial status? I don't know either. If i'm in their shoes, it would be very difficult for me to accept that bitter fact. All I could do for their family now is to pray for them.

Aside from that bad news, on the other hand, I took two exams today. I am now distressed because i'm not confident with both of my exam. Another item to be added on my prayer list. Sigh. Gaaah, I had another exam tomorrow, and this time it's a sure ball. I won't flunk the exam tomorrow. I'll strive harder for my family's sacrifice and trust on me. Such a good girl isn't it? I must be. :)

After a bad news and mind-boggling exams, is a provoking little argument with the bf. Pssh, but I won't tell the details anymore. We're both mood swingers remember? Sigh.

Lately, I've been so hapless. Nothing new, nothing good. Whenever I don't feel sad, that doesn't mean I'm happy either. Anyway, my life's abash as of the moment. I wanted to cry but I won't let it, I need to be strong myself to buck up others, not to be a burden for those who are extremely upset and anguish.

Woah, consecutive gloomy incidents that are happening to me. I hope one day I would wake up happily, contented, and worry-free. When will that happen? In my dreams! Pssh, these are all just a piece of cake, right? (And when did I learn sweet-lemoning, huh? lol)

Kidding aside, my day started with a bad news and I'm not sure how long will my struggles come to a halt but I won't allow it to have a grip on me. I'll be strong. I wish, i wish.

[xi] One of the worst days of my life.
[xii] Include my friend's family on your prayers. Thank you.
[xiii] If ever "that" happened to 'him', I'll miss 'him' for sure (you know what I mean).

But you came and changed my whole world now, i'm somewhere i've never been before.

2009-01-30T21:10:00.000-08:00

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.

It has been a very stressful week for me. Since this week is jam-packed of school related works, hassle and pressure got me. How much more when it's already 12th week of this term? I'll be dead. I never thought of college this pretty hard from my normal anticipation. Gosh.

This week, i've pretty focused on school works and that's a darn thing, can't enjoy full blast. lol, but it's fine. I'm a student of course, it's a part of it. Last thursday was exactly my hell day, literal. Yeah, it sucks when you have two consecutive major exam then a report to finish, and it sucks more when you were not able to review because of that report! Sigh. But thank God the first exam was moved next week, now, I have four remaining exam the week ahead. Another big sigh. crap.

Blah blah, enough said. This is a random entry so I'll write down random thoughts I have in mind. Love life? Oh well, what can I say. We're already in our third year and nine month committed relationship (well, not exactly but i don't know what you'll call that. pssh). We've been through many struggles and here we are now, standing still, unmovable, drawn with love. Yes, for three years, there were tears, pain, break-ups, and the likes; But, every relationship have these downfalls to test the so called genuine love with of course, God at our center. We cannot forget His goodness to both of us. In the next three months, we're already in our fourth year, it seems too fast but still too slow. Why too fast but too slow? It's too fast because it seems like recently we were just kids (we're involved in that since-childhood-buddies) then for four years we were lovers. Too slow because we're looking forward for deeper relationship, i mean, after we graduated in college we'll be more serious to plan about the future (if you get what I mean).

Another random thing. I'm not into journals and my professor on discrete math had just obliged us to write journals on a weekly basis. Gawd, since when did Math courses turned into English? Heck. Yes, I don't care either. I'll just do for the sake of my writing skills. (And since when did i learn sweet lemoning? HAHA) gaah, making fun, sorry :)

Okay now, I've been pretty drawn to storytelling personal stuffs but heck I had a lot of things to do. I'm just in the mood of updating my blogger. Ya'know, I always depend on the mood i'm in. Sorry. lol.

Sorry for the random entry :)
Kbye for now.

Good day!

[xi] 4 remaining exams to go. Review, review, and review.
[xii] I'll have my braces soon perhaps.

I look at life on both sides now.

2009-01-21T01:57:00.000-08:00

Hey guys! the damsel is back. I've been pretty internet-deprived lately for the reason that there are stack of darn school works, add my laziness as well. I abandoned this site for almost a month or two. For those few months, there are load of stuffs to be told. Yeah, i've got lot of things to blab about but pardon me, my brain cells are tired enough to dig up stories from the last few months and story tell all right now.

Let's talk about some recent issues.

This week is my school's second year foundation celebration. Different colleges prepared exceptional events. For the record, I almost joined the beauty pageant! Oh well, I have the figure, perhaps, but not the general preparedness for it actually (since this is supposedly my first time and the preparation span is for a week). I've reconsidered many things before giving out my choice. I'd chosen not to participate and represent my college for a reason that "someone" didn't allow me to join, though i have the thought of excitement plus the swarm of friends motivating me. Either of the two choices, I would still disappoint one party. And I chose that someone over my friends, yeah I know that sucks, bigtime. You don't know the situation, I had no choice but to give up the thought. I wouldn't and couldn't wish to live with the fact that i've taken that someone for granted and regret it someday. The pageant is not really a big deal so I won't regret not joining, but of course, I also want to experience such opportunities. Perhaps, I'll join next year if fate allows. lol. I wish that time, all will be settled and no more double thoughts on mind.

Another recent thing. My best friend's 19th birthday was last January 12. Then at the 17th, we had his post birthday celebration at Trinoma mall with our moms. We ate at Bigoli, an Italian fastfood restaurant. Pastas we're really great.

Sucks. The picture is blurred. Anyway, i really love their spaghetti and lasagna.

After eating, my BFF and my brother played at Timezone. That was really fun, we spent P300 just playing there for hours. I'm not sure of the accurate time. All in all, we've enjoyed the day :) Pictures! more at my Multiply.

Me and moms at my back.

BFF and my brother bragging.
Me and my BFF at Timezone.

[xi] To sum it all up, positive things somehow dominated me the last few months :)
[xii] Excited for tomorrow's foundation event - Family Feud Malayan Edition.
[xiii] I'll try to be regular on my bloglife. lol. I won't utter promises, everything depends on my mood. sorry. :)

Stress. Love. Updates.

2008-11-25T05:10:00.000-08:00

Being a student, it's usual to be tired, to be burn out and mentally drained. Of course, it's the key and major requirement for you to break in the next level. When I was in my lower level years, i always thought that college may not be as hard as what others s
ay. But now that i'm on my second year of being an BS IT student, I can say that that is a faulty statement. My parents could even attest to that. I've never been this worn out in my entire existence. tss.

In our major course(subject), our final exam is to develop a software. For our group, we choose to develop a game, which is WINGO-windows bingo. All the group accomplished their systems for approximately two months. It's not easy I tell you. You're required to have sleepless nights and a lot of logic on head to complete the system.

Today(11.25) is the exhibit of our softwares. The exhibit has been successful but assuredly exhausting. You know, you have to promote, walk here and there, explain and explain. Get it? That only means, i've been standing for almost a day. But we're all prepared for that, perhaps. All in all, the exhibit was successful and we're glad we didn't receive any not-so-good feedbacks from those people who tried everyone's software.

Personally, I'm really glad of the output. Thanks to our professor, we appreciate him though he always gives us a lot of pressure. Everything he and we had done is for our sake. :)

Photos!

View from the 4th floor. Students arrived.

Highschool students from different schools playing.

I was asked to make a tarpaulin for our section during the exhibit.
Here's the result. It's rushed, only for few minutes(so don't expect better output),
it'll be posted on the same day so it needs to be printed immediately.

*****

Just for the sake of updating. I'll post these quotes. Not sure if all of these are Bob Ong quotes, i'll post it anyway. It's funny in some sense but heck, it's actually true. :)

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. "Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala"

17. "Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan"

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo.

Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit?

Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

20. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo.

Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

21. "Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal...nakakatakot mahulog...at kapag nahulog ka, it's either by accident or talagang tanga ka.."

* Speaking of broken-hearted quoets, I've heard and seen a lot of bitterness today, everywhere! Gee. I'm glad i'm no longer one of them.. are you? :)

[xs] That's all for now. I badly need rest. Need to recharge for another fight tomorrow. gee. Updates soon :)

My 12-year-old brother sneak out.

2008-11-23T04:18:00.000-08:00

November 4- around 11pm, as i was ready to drift off to sleep, papa checked if my brother's inside my room. I just said he's not there and asked why. He said that my brother is not inside our house. After concluding that he sneak out, my parents tried to find him outside. Of course, I also got worried and i wasn't able to sleep though i said to myself that i need to sleep early cause i have 7am class the next morning. My parents got back but they didn't find my brother. We found a letter and it states...

"Aalis lang ako, gusto ko mapagisa. Babalik din ako.." - Renz

LOL. After i read it, i laughed. Seriously. :))

Mama: natawa ng konti, "bakit ka tumawa?"
Me: Big grin, "Di ko lam, nakakatawa kase eeh!"

I really don't know? Maybe because i never thought that he would ever do such thing especially at his age? I always look at him as a little boy though he's turning teen next year.
Now i thought of him no longer as a little boy whom i used to bully back then. haha.

So.. parents used the car and continued their search.

I worried more. Kahit madalas ko siya sungitan ATE padin ako kaya i worried a lot. Di ako makatulog. There, nakabalik din silang tatlo. Di ko na sila pinakinggan at nakatulog na ko agad.

I asked my brother this afternoon if where did he go, he said he went to Pacita, "nagmuni-muni". Natawa nanaman ako, haha.

A while ago, while eating dinner, i asked papa and mama about what happened the other night (my bro's in the sala so he didn't heard us). Ayun, tawanan lang kame. Yung magaling kong kapatid, nagtricycle pala nung gabi hanggang Pacita pero naglakad pauwi, parang ewan. May dalang flashlight, sobrang dilim sa dinadaanan niya nung nakita siya nila papa. hehe. Now he's okay.. nagtampo lang siya, kung ano ano pa nga yung kinuwento, ang lamig daw habang naglalakad siya. haha. malamang? 11:30pm na yun noh.

***
Papa: "Isa lang naman problema ng anak mo eh.. Kamatis, Saging, Pinya.."

Mama: loading...... sabay tawa.. ahaha :))

nung kinuwento nila yan ang tagal din ng loading saken.. un pala KSP lang. pinalandi pa ni papa. haha. tsk.

well, it's okay. minsan talaga kelangan din mag emote ng mga bata especially when they feel that they're losing their loved one's attention :)

[xs] I made this entry in the past 3 weeks but in my multiply site though.

Second Chances.

2008-11-23T03:52:00.000-08:00

Right. And i think I just did the right thing. Maybe there's a bit of doubt at first, but who knows? Real happiness might be the next in line. But one thing for me now, no regrets :) Give people the chance to prove themselves, they can always do better than what you think about them. I'm glad i didn't let pride dominate.

***

I'm not really sure why i posted this. Maybe because i remembered those days.. days where happiness is way too far from reality. Figuratively. lol. This may be the reason why I love one particular Filipino movie (I seldom like local movies, but this one's different) "One More Chance", it never fails to make me wet my shirt. I always end up wasted. I always see myself portraying the role of the guy. Sigh. I remembered.. those days. But i learned to forgive, but i didn't say i forget. A scar is always permanent. Smile :)

Not really an important entry, I just take a break from darn schoolworks.

One thing, i'm definitely a-ok! :)

But you're just a boy, you don't understand how it feels to love a girl.

2008-10-20T03:11:00.000-07:00

If I were a boy
I think I'd understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man.

I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed.

But you're just a boy..

- Beyonce, If I were a Boy.

A song caught my attention this morning when my girl friend played this song on her phone. I don't know what's my reason to like this song, but somehow, there's something special in this song, and that's.. i'm not sure of. Is it becoming a boy? Maybe because i'm just too curious to find out what a boy really thinks whenever he's hurting a girl or maybe because I already felt how to be shattered and taken for granted. This may have cause me to be nosy enough to eye on a boy's feeling. I know girls out there agree, perhaps? yea, screw that feeling. But we don't know what they really think and feel.

They're just a boy, they may be hurting too, who knows? But one thing's for sure.. we simply can't be a boy.

Official Music Video. It's worth the watch :)

[xs] Pardon me for a short entry. The girl's busy right now. Darn schoolworks.

Special Teeth

2008-10-07T05:56:00.000-07:00

Saturday(Oct.4), I went to the dentist to consult regarding my TMJ syndrome and teeth abnormalities. As far as i know, TMJD or Temporomandibular joint disorder is a kind of disorder wherein there's a possibility of having a lock jaw. Lock jaw is as bad as it sound. The jaw literally locks, get it? good.

I already know about this long before, because everytime i would widely open my mouth(either yawning or eating), there's always a significant pain and jaw popping or ticking sound in my jaw bones or the sides of my face. There's a scientific explanation, of course. Try to figure it out.

I have this special case though. Of course, there would be series of treatments for this kind of disorder but because of my special case, the treatment process may took several months. Well i'm talking about my teeth. In my lower teeth, i have FOUR missing teeth. Missing, as in, no sign of four teeth since birth. And i think, it's also one of the factors for having this TMJD.

So, before the treatment for my TMJD, i need braces first to correct my lower teeth. After the braces will be the time that i will undergo the TMJD treatment. Whew. Though braces may be appealing to some, it's still difficult to manage that situation, the pain plus the special cleaning action. lol. It's also kind of annoying having wires wrapping around your teeth. geee.

I pity my brother. He got braces just this morning, and I think it sucks for him. He can't sleep. He's in the verge of crying. Yes, while i'm typing this entry, he's managing to get some good sleep inspite of the pain. He even asked for sleeping pills, how about that?

So i'm still double minded.

Why do you prefer calling abnormal kids as special children?
So why do i have to call my teeth abnormal, if i can call them..
"Special Teeth"? :)

[xi] I'm back to blogging! cheers! :)

It's been a while..

2008-09-13T05:15:00.000-07:00

i haven't posted an entry for weeks.

My hell week is over and now is my term break,
and it bores me to death.

I'm even lame enough to write a sensible entry. Such a couch potato.

This is how i spend my break.. a total rest, in literal sense. gaah.

oh well, moody-ish disease attacks! again.

pardon me:(

I'll be back to blogging soon! i hope :)

highlights of my hell week.

2008-08-22T08:57:00.000-07:00

Damn hell week. I've been busy this past few weeks especially this whole week!

Loads of darn schoolworks! long exams, documentations, defenses., it drive me nuts and it sucks,really. sigh. the other day, i only slept for 2 hours because of a take home exam. gee, man.

IT SUCKS. BIGTIME.

Well, although this week has been so tough for me, i'm still happy.
First, because my tropa, Mr. Ronel John Bartolazo has been voted to be the VERY FIRST MALAYAN IDOL 08. A singing competition of different students of each college department on our school. I'm so much proud because Bart gave our department an honor. Also, he is our tropa. So we were very supportive to him. Voting was done through text and i can't imagine that he just got large text votes. That was unexpected. Now i thought, not all unexpected occurrence are awful such as unexpected failed examinations and surprise quizzes, at least for me. lol.

Bart, the one wearing a blue jacket.

Secondly, the band HALE, had a mini concert in our school before the announcement of the first Malayan Idol. Girls go crazy over gaga, including me? He's so hadsome and.. sigh, irresistable. Geee. Hope to see him again. lol. nah, it's enough for me to take some pictures and videos from a distant. haha. I don't need to take a closer look, but i almost.. almost give in and go in front to see him face to face and wishfully have a picture with him. But i just can't. LOL. kidding.

CHAMP, vocalist of the band HALE.

The following weeks, i have a schedule of TWO defenses from different subjects. sigh. Hope my braincells would have their strength back, they're too stressed to think again about such mind twisting schoolworks. I hate it.

Well, it's morning again, need to rest. Good day people :)

[xs] Tomorrow is the day! We're going to Marillac Hills, the one that i've blogged before. I'm excited and worried at the same time. I hope that the program tomorrow will run smoothly and no hindrances.

Dilemma

2008-08-19T07:08:00.000-07:00

Do you know the feeling of having no confidence towards a person? I mean, distrust is more dominant than trust, though you both know that you should be open with each other? It's like keeping a secret in order to protect someone or something? Man, it sucks, right? Well, this isn't really my story actually. It's from a friend of mine regarding her issues on lovelife. I'll just keep their identity for privacy purposes. So, game?

My BFF has a bestfriend (the guy) which is also his highschool classmate. And the guy has his girlfriend(the girl) who happened also to be their classmate. To make the story short, until now, they're still committed, but both are not in good terms. So this is the issue, the girl is like being possessive and suspicious, i mean, whenever the guy puts gel over his hair, very well-groomed or things like these, she'll hella freak out! lol,exaggerated..but i know that you know it's half meant. Petty fights begin with small things like these. She doesn't want other girls to like her guy. Because of such frequent arguments, their relationship became monotonous and cold, which results for the guy's unfaithfulness, well sort of. He starts to like some other girls, but i know he still loves her girl. I hope?

Well, the dilemma is really tied to me. The girl send me a very looong message regarding her problem, which i already know because my BFF told me their story. She asked me if i can be her confidant. Being a girl and the best friend of her BF's best friend(get it?), i was her last and only resort to find out if her guy is goofing around with somebody else.

Well, i know "some" of her guy's white lies, misbehaviors and crimes but my BFF's friendship with his bestfriend would be at stake if ever i tell a thing to the girl. get what i mean? Bear with me, it's real confusing but try to contemplate with what i'm trying to express. lol. Though the guy commit these things, my BFF still persuades me that the guy assures that he still loves his girl, he's loyal and he can't leave her. But who's convinced? I'm no convinced. Why would he do such lies and "girl-hunting" acts if he's genuine and loyal to his girl? Ironic, man. Try to think of a better alibi next time.

I want to help and comfort the girl because i know what she's going through. I'm a girl, i understand her situation. I once literally felt that pain, and it's deep from the heart. ooh, the pain, unbearable man! lol. ya'know? On the other hand, i have this BFF who asked me NOT to tell anything because everything will just end worsen. Got his point though. He just told me to tell advices and encouragements that will help improve their relationship. We'll not join their problem, instead we'll let the guy tell everything to the girl, but NOT me. And I understand what he's trying to pinpoint.

I replied to her message and told her everything positive to give her hope and make her realize that nagging is no better solution and open communication is the only formula for their problem right now. I hope that these would help them and make their relationship stronger than before.

sigh. i realized one thing. it sucks to be a love doctor. bigtime.
haha, i don't know. Being stucked between two ideas? Darn, it drive me nuts! haha.

[xs] Darn Hell Week!

8/13 One Big Thank You

2008-08-15T05:56:00.000-07:00

BIG thanks to the literally lotsa people who greeted me on my 18th birthday! o8.13.08

I super appreciate it.

I'm officially legal. LOL. legal na bumoto! haha!

I just can't believe that i'm already a full-grown lady.
I still can't materialize. lol.
***

anonymous.
familiar friends/schoolmates.
highschool friends.
college friends and tropa.
churchmates.
professors.
relatives.
family.

THANK YOU :)

***

I didn't prepare a grand debut party, but still i enjoyed my natal day. I watched a movie with my college tropa and that's enough to make me happy and contented. Another one is having my family complete. It may sound a bit mushy but it's true, at least for me. You know, It's rare to have my father with us every time i would celebrate my birthday. So it's more than enough just to know that i have them with me, a family that's very supportive and loving. And the other one that would definitely complete my birthday is, of course, the BFF. I'm going to Bulacan on monday(08/18) and will continue my week long birthday celebration. lols. We're planning to go to star city, and i think it's all set :)

Before going to SM. some friends are missing.

Ang hirap pala mag multi-tasking! I have to respond on all the birthday comments on FS, pm's on YM, write a thank you blog on Multiply, and code our machine problem (programming course). haha. well, the details will be blogged soon, or if ever i got the chance because starting tomorow, HELL week begins. sigh. goodluck to us.

I have so much to write but time won't allow me to.

till here. And once again, a BIG THANK YOU EVERYONE :)

cheers y'all! haha :)

There are some who are unluckier than anyone else

2008-08-06T05:10:00.000-07:00

"I'm the unluckiest person alive."

Sounds familiar, right?! You might even heard it with some of your friends. But try to put on one's thinking cap. Is it? Are you the unluckiest one ever?

I'm already insusceptible of those omg-'twas-terrible! news on tv, but to witness yourself and sense other people's dilemma, it seems a different story.

Last two weeks in my philosophy class, i was selected along with the other key persons to be part of the core group that will plan and organize a program that will be held specifically at Marillac Hills, an institution under the DSWD located at Alabang; where sexually-abused girls from ages 16 and below were staying. That time, while my prof was telling unusual stories about some cases there, i was like "uh really?". It seems unfair for those innocent angels to experience such illicit things at that early age, at the age of 8? where's the justice?

I've realized how hard for them to accept that cruel fact. I feel for them.

Last monday (08.04.08), with my Philo prof, sir mesina, and some co-key persons, we went to alabang to conduct an ocular inspection on the said place. It's quite different from what i thought first. It's quiet and peaceful. The girls were inside their classrooms. Btw, the place does not only serve as their shelter but also their learning place. There's a school, playground, and basketball court. Ya'know? They're living just like US, normals.. are you? kidding.

Court. The venue of the program.

The Classrooms

The Playground.

But kidding aside, upon seeing those hapless girls, especially the mestiza lass with a swollen tummy who still shout, run and act like a little girl, as if she's not carrying a precious life inside her, is a pinch in my heart. I can't imagine how they've been able to handle the memories and trauma. If you ask me, i surely can't handle such situation, especially when you have no one to trust in your family, a family that's supposed to be your haven but unexpectedly turned out to be a damn hell. Life's so tough for them, primarily at their young age.

So through the program that we'll be conveying on august 23, we can help those girls by making them happy and lighthearted, one way or another. It may not be a HUGE help, but we assure that we'll give our best shot for their happiness. After all, after graduating, our primary purpose is apparently to serve people, not in this kind of field though. But, what's the BIG difference? Nothing really. They're both ministering for others who are seeking our help and availability.

They say life is cruel to those deserving better, and so good to those whom don't. But i say GOD, has his own plan and purpose. He sees the larger view of what we can't perceive. Sometimes or most of the time, there are questions that are unanswerable. You don't actually need to find the answers by yourself but let God, He can, just consider. It's absurd if you don't believe what i'm saying. Man, you're no sinister, perhaps?

I realized and considered myself blessed as well because through such activities like this, i was and will be able to learn and reflect how lucky and truly blessed am i.

Contemplate on this, you have your comfort zone, they don't. You can go outside, have fun and do whatever you want to do, they can't. You could be with your family, they can't, they simply can't be safe behind the big walls, the BIG walls that keeps them off from the real world. Still consider yourself unlucky? Man, Think thrice.

xii. August 23 is exciting. It would be tiring but surely fruitful and productive at the same time. I hope everything would turn out to be fine. ((:

a creepy psycho perverted old retard.

2008-07-17T06:50:00.000-07:00

a freakin' fcuker assh*le.

He sucks, a friggin monster, a damn crap.

Hey, these are the perfect words for him. Not enough though.

Nah, i'm not being mean or something but i tell you..

he DESERVES ALL OF THESE WORDS. Swear.

I HATE PERVERTS!

SALOT SA LIPUNAN.

They're making this poor economy much even worse.

- o7/17/o8, one traumatic morning i tell you -

I can't express the details because that issue is kind of sensitive and confidential. I don't want this blog to be regarded as having an "adult content". If you're after the details, i might as well give it privately to you :)

Before anything else comes to your mind, don't think too much, he did nothing to me, physically. But that old freak disturbed the lost-in-my-thought-wind-on-my-hair moment. LOL, but kidding aside, it's just that he performed such ... acts, unacceptable acts, which i can't publicly share. One thing i can say.. HE'S A FCUKIN' PSYCHO. Omg, Beware of such species.

Well, i don't want this to prolong. I just want to warn all girls out there that perverts do exist somewhere unexpected waiting whom he may devour(haha), which includes public transportations. aw. I guess you might have the idea already. So if you get what i mean, beware, they're everywhere. Check if the coast is clear then breakaway.

A reminder from a victim, uh, cross out victim, concerned citizen i mean. tsk. tsk. Well, enough of that damn issue.

*My bad. PARDON me for saying those crappy words. Not really cursing, that's not how i roll, but that.. ugh, he really get on my nerves. gah! So sorry for the ramblings and et cetera. x(

voodoo is love

2008-07-07T07:06:00.000-07:00

so what's with the title?
guess what? can't guess?
well, i've made a voodoo doll. haha.

That's something new about me 'cause i'm not really into sewing especially voodoo dolls. lols. I was inspired to make one when i saw my friend, Kim, bought a voodoo doll at bear cuddlers'. It was pretty cute, so Tina and i observed how it was done, the materials, design and et cetera. We thought it's not that difficult to make a similar one. We end up doing our hand-made voodoo dolls and thought we've accomplished something great (oh well, sort of? haha), though we're pricked several times. That's what envy can do. great! *laughs:)

I haven't really finished yet mine, but at least i started already. Tina already finished hers. Here are the pics. haha. I'm not really sure why we have to link love next to VOODOOS. *laughs.

Tina's doll. *envy. she's already finished and 'twas fat!

Boohoo, mine. Not yet finish *sob. plus it's also thin. lol.

Don't laugh. I kill. lmao

sigh, another night. Days have been passing by so quickly. Today i'm a sophomore, after few terms i'm 3rd year. Today i'm 17, next month i'm legal. I don't know if I'll be happy or what. As you grow older, normally, things are getting tougher. And i just hate it, but i have to live with it or else endure. Difficult yes, but in the end, fulfilled. I want it that way, the harder it gets, the sweeter your victory will be. Oh how i wish i could surpass these college life. BURDENS, so heavy. help! lol.

hey time to rest, need to re-charge.
There's a bright new day ahead. haha.

Good day guys!

[x] afternoon class tomorrow. sigh. updates tomorrow,i hope.

MCL Unites with ABS-CBN

2008-07-03T04:39:00.000-07:00

features

Aryt, so nothing really special happened this day aside from being LATE for 30 minutes on my first class (ooh crap) and a shooting inside our IT Laboratory. nice? They said it's for the TV Ad that they would air on abs. *I hope I'll be able to be seen there. haha. Ya'know, my school partnered with ABS-CBN. I'm not really sure why, maybe because of Don Yuchengco. is it? well, don't care actually, enuff said.

***

July 4, 2008

oh what a crap. SURPRISE QUIZZES in my 2 subjects. That's effin' unfair. sigh.

Geesh, i'm tired. I'll sleep early tonight because i already have consecutive nights staying up late in front of my PC. I'm already addicted, bad habit. tsk. Sorry guys. Updates soon.

But still, TGIF.

[x] One subject tomorrow. Don't want to attend but i have to. damn.

Gasping for air

2008-07-02T01:59:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, girls also need to chillax, to reduce the level of stress. In my own opinion, majority of women think more seriously than men, so they're more pressured unlike men who can budget and give allotment for their precious time with leisure and fun, how'd they do that huh? I'm not saying that it's bad though, and I'm not preferring to all men. Not because I'm a girl, you'd think I'm bias. I'm just trying to pinpoint what's more obvious. *laughs. peace. blah.. enough of it.

One afternoon after our class, Me with Tina and Joy spent an hour at the school's garden. We talked about anything under the sun. Boys, heartaches, bitterness, and everything awful in this damn life were included, of course. Poor garden, absorbed all the bad auras we released. lol.

Old picture of the three of us. (L-R. Kham, Tina, Joy)

Everybody has their own story of a heartbreak. I myself had to. Oh, the pain.

Whenever you heard such kind of stories, you'd only think of two things; either you're luckier or you've found a "fellow-broken". crap.

Personally, though I've experienced much sorrow in the past, i can say that i'm luckier, or should i say more blessed at this point in time. I thought it's one kind of punishment for me, but after that incident, it helped me realize that it was a learning experience that i can eventually use in the future. In every pain, there's an equal reward or much more than that.

And i already got my award for suffering much pain in the past. -I'm experiencing the love that i deserve to the highest level. *LOL :)

I have a lot to share but my brain says "gimme a break". whoa. I'll just edit this blog if i got the chance because i'm also working with another entry. Sleepy. *yawn

[x] I hope tomorrow won't be miserable unlike today.

Mapuan. Proud to be one?

2008-07-01T06:18:00.000-07:00

The best/boy friend gave me this Mapua T-Shirt. *thanks to him. i love it :)
This shirt is a limited offer at his school(Mapua Intra).

The novelty shirt is from the movie 300. The popular line "Spartans prepare for glory!" was converted into "Mapuans...". And one more thing, instead of 300, it became 3.00, ain't this shirt a good motivation for students like me? LOL. The movie 300 was always in parody. I don't know why. But it's sure funny.

While i was browsing videos in Youtube, i found several clips of 300 -dubbed with bisaya dialect. It's humorous yes, but it's kind of degrading Visayans. tsk. People nowadays only finds entertainment for themselves but doesn't know how to handle it without offending others.

Enough of the intro. So yea, back to the shirt. Good thing we have sister schools (Mapua&&Malayan) And since, we both doesn't have uniforms in our school, there's no problem if I'll wear it at my school. In fact, i already wore it today. Proud to be one ei? Sure does. haha. Who ain't be proud if you're enrolled in a school having those state of the art facilities, best faculty from the region, low matriculation, so on and so forth. But of course, it's still a developing school so majority doesn't have any idea yet about the saidschool. But if you'll just see. haha. talk about bragging huh? *half meant. lol. :D

who says i'm joking? reserve first your verdicts.
here are the proofs. Take a peek at the OUTSIDE of my school :)

MALAYAN COLLEGES LAGUNA
Seriously, I don't really feel the name but no choice :P

need i say more?

Not convinced with what you see? You can check the website anytime, here's the url http://www.mcl.edu.ph/.

Go figure.

[x] Schoolworks. arrgh. Chemistry kills braincells x(

I've just made a new blog

2008-06-30T08:49:00.000-07:00

Basically, it's not really for official blogging.
I'll still be posting my blogs here in my main site.

I just made it for personal purposes -my question box.

It contains more infos of me from basic to personal. Especially those FAQs. So people may know me well. Any kind of question will do, but i also have boundaries :)

So if you have some concerns or questions, just type it in my question box and I'll be posting my answers in my new blog. Just be sure to check it regularly. If you have comments, please not to harsh. RESPECT begets respect.

If you have time, you can check it through this link..

http://damselspeaksblah.blogspot.com

thank you,
kham :)

existence vs. essence

2008-06-28T03:16:00.000-07:00

WHAT COMES FIRST?

it's fun and interesting yet really an head explody maan! Gaah. This isn't easy as what you think. If it is, might as well pardon me, i'm no psych or philo major. I'm an IT, see any connection? :)

anyways..lemme see..

I had a 12:30 philosophy class today.
And it made my depleted braincells back to work. err.
We had a group work with few questions regarding existence and essence. So, what do you think?! What comes first? The first one or the latter? geee.

We brainstormed within our group and viewpoints were presented. Either of the two, it both sounded right. But at the end, we might as well choose what's more reasonable and so far, twas ESSENCE.

why is that?

Because how could you make something if you don't have any idea or reason in your bright mind for making it? So basically, ESSENCE or purpose comes first before a certain thing is created. Of course, it's from my own point. Don't get your nerves on me if said it wrong. :)

Groups debated and exchanged thoughts. gee. nice arguments. The answer would be presented next meeting. I'm starting to like philo already, i guess? oh no. I should. *laugh

If you want to share something, i'm harmless enough to hear your side. thanks.

[x] btw, it's a fun day! my hubby visited me y. yay! xD

I was once like them. Really.

2008-06-27T04:44:00.000-07:00

Heartbreak.
Why is there a heartache if love is the answer for everything?

They say that love conquers all, that love is the answer, that love is everything, everywhere. But it’s such a cliché because love can also destroy. How did I know? Of course I know, because I learned it from my teacher – experience.

There are those tests that teacher gave me wherein I almost give up and flunk that dumb test. I was once a victim of love’s cruelty. The pain and agony it brought me. I was tortured to the point that I opt to hate love and give trust to no one.

Oh great. Many things had happened from the past. Unbearable, yet tolerable.

Gulo no?

Nah, I mean, It’s as if you’ll gonna die of crying in deep pain. That there’s no good that will happen tomorrow, and wish you’d never wake up again for having a grievous heart ache once again. Every night, you’d cry yourself to sleep reminiscing your damn past. You’ll think that that endless pain will remain throughout your whole damn life. But it's just a mind over matter. Your state of mind is the center of your being, if you have a strong belief in yourself plus the desire to forget or move on, you will.

Personally, there are those people who tried to pull me down and I found myself dumbfounded to find out that they are the one whom I gave my full trust to. It sucks to know that the people who were closest to your heart are those people who could tremendously hurt you. You’re crying yourself to sleep, while them? They’re busy making fun memories, as if they’re celebrating for their victory over you. Lucky fools. Me? Tough luck. Bigtime. "Better luck next time", they thought. tsk.

You’d experience antipathy and envy grows in you whenever you see couples walk hand-in-hand along the street as if love birds inside their own world. You’d start to hate valentines. Romantic flicks sucks for you. You’d be grumpy to everyone. You’d always be spotted with a face so blue and gloomy.

Maan. Life sucks, eh?

Always think that love just didn’t rest in the other person’s heart.

Patiently wait for the RIGHT one. He could be...somewhere, near you. Open your windows and you'll see those people who could truly love you with no reservations, no limits, who couldn't stand see you hurting, who'll fight for you, cry with you, and be with you through thick and thin.

Of course, I can’t blame anyone. It’s sure hard to move-on, but it’s the only BEST way. If they can’t love you. You learn to love yourself by not bearing all the pain and hatred in this world, remember, they're too many for you. This world's flooded with grief and pain. Let go of your burdens. Let go of your bitterness and resentments because it won't help you recover. But i know, it all takes TIME, but you should also combine time with your EFFORTS.

You must start off by realizing that you have reached the bottom of the pit and the only way you can go now is up. This is the day when you must take the decision to start on that road upwards.

It may be slow, but it must be sure.

A piece of advice, how you deal with love is how love deals with you. Plus, endorphin’s a better answer for those who are emotionally down. Go figure. (Credits to my Chem prof. Lol)

Don’t worry. What goes around, comes around. You’ll have your justice sooner or later. *laugh

Someday, you'll find him/her just like me. smile :)

So cheer up, friend :)

[x] tomorrow would be a great day. i hope :)

Bonding

2008-06-24T06:42:00.000-07:00

Me and my girls went to SM after class. Around 3:30-4:00pm.

Nah, nothing really special happened aside from the usual laughing session and also from the pink headbands we bought. We all have the same brand and style. wadyaasay?! *laughs. we'll wear it tomorrow at school. Isn't that cute? shoot.

tummy rumbles.. need to re-charge for the loss energy. lol.
we give a try at the food court. uhm, so yea, here are the pics after we eat.

i love my girls though insanity is part of their ritual and personality. lol. we have different personalities but "opposite poles attract", isn't it? *laughs. Hey don't complain. Truth hurts. I know, i understand. haha. :) Maybe that what makes bonding more special. true ei?

Let the good times roll. x)

Have a nice day y'all!

[x] it's almost morning, need to get some sleep. I have an 8:30am class tomorrow.
[xx] try to update myself tomorrow.

reality

2008-06-24T05:36:00.000-07:00

we ask ourselves sometimes, "if i choose love over what is justly right, will it be worth it?"

it just depends on how we decide.

Sometimes, what is expected of you is not how you really feel.
Other things cannot be freely expressed because it would mean hurting someone,
and at the same time, risking yourself into that pain too.

agree?

[x] just a quote. realms of thoughts, don't bother ask c:

things said and things done are things gone

2008-06-23T05:51:00.000-07:00

After the trials and pain we'd been through the past 3 years,
i guess, or i should say, that these things really strengthened us.

My realizations

I've come to realize that real open communication is still
the best solution to every misapprehension.

another thing is PRIDE. Men are not only the victims of this sin.
BOTH men and women are guilty.
I myself is having a hard time dealing with this kind of attitude,
i don't meant it that way though.
Pride is not even a bit help when you're involved in a relationship. trust me.
exclude this attitude. It'll only ruin you and your someone.

Give your trust to him. You're the one who knows him deeply. agree?

Don't nag as if your the BOSS and he's the poor employee. They feel degraded. (rebellion & revenge might root from this behavior. oh man, beware)

Don't make decisions when you're mad. You'll regret it. fo'show.
Don't either make decisions when you're not sure, you might screw that idea afterwards.

"Things said and things done are things GONE."
No matter how you try to change it, you never will.

These are simple things that ive realized.
I just shared what are the Do's and Don'ts that i should and shoudn't have done to him. *laughs

double celebration

2008-06-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

June 19, 2008.

No classes because it's Laguna holiday.
One hot sunny day. The most-awaited double celebration of my two girl friends.

Kim and Joyce, Celebrators

We had a swimming party at Kim's place. It was totally a fun-filled day! Well, after we picked up the foods at SM, we went straight to the clubhouse. While waiting for others, we grilled barbeque and liempo. mmm. delicious, eh?
After eating our meals, we already jumped off the pool. excited, eh?
breathtaking..

more pics at my multiply

We really had fun this day. I'll truly cherish each precious moments with my friends. They're one of the reasons why I love schooling and why i continue to be myself, just as i am, because i know that they can accept me even at my worst state. That's what friends are for, right? -i hope i'm right. *laughs

hmm. so yea, had a pretty fun day :)

[x] it's already 12am. need to get some sleep. tired. *yawn
[xx] try to update myself tomorrow. *i wish

The Damsel

2008-06-20T18:58:00.001-07:00

wickedly vain. oh. blame the camera. tss.

The goofy damsel here goes with the name Kamille but she's frequently called Kham, which is her nickname. Also, she answers to whatever pet names concocted by her friends. She's born and raised in the Philippines, specifically in Bulacan but recently resided to Laguna. Yep, she's one proud PINAY.

She is currently taking up Bachelor of Science in Information and Technology and she's in her second year; Hoping to finish and pass the course on time, ALIVE. At least for now "still sane", she adds. lmao. August 2008, she mutated into a full-grown lady in age, yet living a heart of a child.

When it comes to physical aspects, you'll never see her last in line. She possesses Korean features that ends up teasing her "Koreana", blame the bangs, her eye shapes plus her body type- slim. She's not short. Fair-skinned. She has moles and a dimple in her left cheek. She has her own taste of everything.

She's a frustrated blogger. Started blogging recently and still in the process of developing her writing skills so bear with her. She's no bookworm, and that adds to her burden of writing a perfect entry. Inspiration motivates her to write from personal to crappy things inside or beyond her parameters. She always want to think out of the box, that's exciting. Internet is one of her outlets for verbalizing her inner self, her true being. She's creative in her own special way, oh c'mon!

She gets cheesy at times. She prefers romance and comedy flicks over hardcore drama or action films. And bet you don't know, she loves Disney films and flicks similar to that. She screams like dumb over lame scary scenes. Man, that's really quite dumb, ei? Sometimes she's the hammer, sometimes she's the nail; meaning, sometimes she do the pounding on others and vice versa. She's inevitable. A moody type yet tolerable. She hate bad hair days, geesh, who'd like that at the first place, eh? She has her comfort foods-sweets! and yet stays in her slim countenance. sigh.

She believes in God as the source of everything and the savior of humanity. She's pretty much conservative and has her boundaries and standard of liberation. Since she was a child, she's the type of person who's willing to sacrifice for other's sake, i have this sort of a superhero intuition huh. I don't care if you'd say it's stupidity or whatever. blaah.

A computer magnet. A musically-inclined person. Her day's not complete without handling her mobile. She's a nature lover. Into photography. With normal social skills. Therefore, She's a normal geek, fo'real.

Hi, I'm Kham. Thank you for spending your precious time with me, i appreciate your kindness. I'm not really good in writing so bear with me. This is just an outlet of my twisted mind. If you have violent reactions regarding my entries then just close this site and get rid of the idea of reading my posts again. Maan, this world's already flooded with hatred, don't add yourself. Mind you, i'm not here to please everybody. I'm just only here to blurt out my brilliant crappy thoughts, yes y'all hear that? good. If you have concerns, don't hesitate to ask. Have a nice day guys :D

Murphy's Law

2008-06-20T03:49:00.000-07:00

"Whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way"
-a simple line, yet so true. this simple law presented by my chemistry prof.

Because of his wide vocabulary and outstanding knowledge(even outside his parameters), i can say that i'm starting to like his subject. blaaah. just wanna share :)

Anywaaayy, back to Murphy's Law. why is this my blog title? simply because of the awful things that happened this morning. tsk.yea, craps. sheeesh. let's begin.

I have 10 a.m class this day - June 20.
Usually, i leave the house an hour before class starts.

So this morning i left around 9am.
And luckily, there's a sluggish traffic and a lethargic driver. gaah. tsk.
so whadaya expect?! yes you bright mind, i'm going to be late at that very moment. But, still small optimism clings on me. haha. poor me. duh.

I walked hurriedly to the terminal and i'm too lucky,
NO schoolmates in line. the last one just left. boohoo.
Obviously, i took a special trip that costs 40 pesos. From P8 to P40? gaad.
i can already buy a snack with that amount. tss.
i won't be late again foshow, you'll see.

Then, when i was already at the campus, in a few seconds, a familiar voice called my name. It's Kim with Joyce and Joel just got out of the tricycle. GAAAD.

"BRING BACK MY P40!", one brain cell reacted after seeing them.
"YOU'RE ALREADY LATE!", the second brain cell shouted bringing me back to sanity. lmao:P

I haven't printed yet my homework in chem
because my printer's already buried dead. tsk.
Kim and i went to SP to print out our h.w.
But another LAME thing happened.

My flashdrive was NEAT CLEAN when scanned. WHATDA!
I thought my homework wouldn't be printed out.
but thank God when it worked when it was tried again.
I need to back up my files asap. sigh.

CLASSROOM.
The four of us entered the room to find out that i'm too lucky again, they're having a QUIZ.
And the worst part, "Last 5 minutes", the prof said.
Good thing is that it's only two items and answers pop out my head easily.

And while he's discussing, he inserted this line that really caught my attention. "When things are bound to happen, IT will happen"

After lunch, another quiz, in CS this time. oh noo!
my brain cells were already dead. sheesh.
i'm tired of studying.. gimme a break. though, it's just been a week since the first day. lol.

"people say that when things aren't bound to happen, you must learn to let go and accept the fact that you're screwed forever"

well, i'll start blogging again from this time on.
till my next entry :)

it's been such a long time.

2008-06-18T09:04:00.000-07:00

yah! here i am again.
it's been a very long time since i wrote my last blog here.
i was kind of busy, and aside from that reason, i'm just too lazy to write things.
Besides, i'm not yet really used of doing this.
the reason why i started blogging is because of an inspiration. i guess? haha.
But that mystery person has no clue at all.
Well, thanks to that person; i started to love blogging,
though started as a frustrated blogger.

*********************************

to catch up.
tomorrow, i have a schedule to go to a swimming party.
Post and advance birthday celebration of my two friends.
nah, i'm not going to cut class nor absent myself in class.
listen, nice girls don't do such things. (haha. you wish!)
okay.. to tell you the truth, we don't have classes.
For the reason that tomorrow is Laguna Day.
oh yes, thanks to good 'ol Mr. Jose Rizal.

I'm excited for tomorrow's activities.
It would be definitely fun :D

[x] i hope that my 1 month rest from blogging would be enough.
It's time again of updating everything about me.

so keep on track c:

:: Summer temptations ::

2008-04-30T22:48:00.000-07:00

Though my friends and i were taking up summer class, i can still feel my summer vacation. Know why? It's because our schedule at school were mostly half day. And because of that, we always have the reason to go out and have fun (maaga pa kase, tara gala muna..etc.) So i'm starting to think that this summer class is a pretty advantage.. (may baon na, may gala pa. haha!)

Though we're always saying "sayang pera, gusto ko na umuwi, tinatamad ako, etc.." we always end up...yes, there, walking at the mall, eating at food chain restaurants, watching inside the movie house, looking for shoes and garments, and everything we could do inside the mall. haha!

Yesterday, we went to Paseo (sawa na kame sa SM). So after getting there, we ate lunch at chowking. haha, and what a small world, Joyce's ex-bf was working at the same food chain. Their eyes met just like what you see in a mushy soap opera. awww. Joyce was uber shy, uhm, i mean, uber self-conscious that time. After eating our lunch..we roam around the area, and after finding nothing, we headed straight to Starbucks.

STARBUCKS.

We ordered frapps though we're still full. All we did was to sip our frapp, take pictures, then laugh, sip, take pictures, then laugh again, and that happened all over and over for two hours. haha! good thing our cameras didn't run out of memory and battery. After the fun moments and bonding, we headed home. and of course, uploaded hundreds of pictures. hahaha.

We HEART Starbucks. YEY!

happy to have such 'real' friends :)

:: Bored ::

2008-04-29T06:58:00.000-07:00

There, i edit that a while ago. super bored ako kanina. instead of doing my homework, mas sinipag ako magphotoshop. hahaa!

This day is just a usual day. aun, nakakatamad lang.
gusto ko lng magblog ngaun para may masabing blog ako this day :P

to read my other blogs, check this out: My Multiply Blogs

But to see all my posts there, you must be my contact first^^

Doodle + Tweetie = cuteness^^

2008-04-28T06:15:00.000-07:00

haha! wala kase ako magawa sa YM habang ka-chat si kim, so nagdraw nlng ako. and look!

cute diba?! ahahaha..

pang GRADE 4 daw! she's mean!

ok lang.. mganda naman talaga eh. hahaha..
ganun talaga, dapat itaas ang sariling bangko
siya na nga ginawan eeeeh! :D

eto naman si SYLVESTER at TWEETY.

wala lang, ang cute nung picture.. at kase.. tinawag ako ni jho na tweetie.. kamukha ko ba si tweety?! tsk! xa tuloy si sylvester. haha.
new code nanaman eh. lahat na.

cute naman diba?!

hahahahaha!
para lang kameng timang, parang bata. :D

pero i lab*lab it! :D

mga GAHAMAN.

2008-04-26T07:00:00.000-07:00

sino sila? yung mga kaklase ko sa MATH na engineering students!

waw! sila'y mga dakilang GAHAMAN sa +plus 5!

haha!
kakaSUSOT na kaya sila?!

sir Aquino: "First five, plus five"

aba'y...
engineering students *tayo na agad sabay pa-check ng papel*

ang iingay pa nila,nakakairita!

what the! napakadudupang nila!
UNFAIR. Dapat sabay sabay yun sinasagutan noh! +plus 5 din yun!!

haha..yea, madamot ako! dapat makakuha din ako!
isang +5 palang kaya nakukuha ko! ampf!

inis na kame ni kim sa mga yun. hmppf.
buti kung mga GWAPO. e ang shoshoho ng mga mukha! hahahaha...
oops! MEAN again. SORRY naman. haha!

hintayin lang nila. nasa amin din ang huling halakhak. hahaha :D

i don't give a damn.

2008-04-26T01:31:00.000-07:00

YOU big time-scuker!

some people assume they're always the CENTER of MY attention.
well, they might be thinking too much? or maybe yes, they never fail to catch my attention, that's because I'm very irritated with...everything 'bout them!

actually, i don't really want to write this kind of crap 'coz it ruins my entire blogspot. *laughs really. yea, because of some insecure people. shooot.
But i want to let out my emotions. *sigh*
This is such a big waste of time. i don't want them to feel that i CARE about them.
say what you say, i won't give a damn. duh.

sana naman mag- bago bago na ung mga IBANG TAO dyan. hahaha. scuker!

anung meron sa CHEESEBURGER?

2008-04-22T05:11:00.000-07:00

OO alam ko cheese!

tongak! hindi un sinasabi ko!

hahaha..e kase naman kung san san ko naririnig!

tas may gagawin lang akong kakaiba o kahit hindi kakaiba

magpapaCHEESEBURGER na agad sila. hala?

mga PINOY talaga pa-kornihan..

di lang sa mga "BANAT" na quotes..

pati sa "commercial"..

anu naman kaya next? :]]

quotes to ponder

2008-04-22T04:30:00.000-07:00

Sometimes when I say "oh I'm fine"
I want someone to look into my eyes and say
"NO, TELL THE TRUTH"

It's frustrating when you know all the answers but no one asks you the question

Just so you know
When a girl sais "I'm fine"
It means EVERYTHING is wrong

If I am pressed to say why I loved him,
I feel it can only be explained by replying:
Because it was he; because it was me.

True love does not come by finding the perfect
person, but by learning to see an imperfect
person perfectly.

Dreams aren't meant to be understood
any more than tragedies can be avoided.
Life happens to us.. the only certainty in
all of it is that it just keeps happening.

Little girl, don’t be so blue.
I know what you’re going through.
Don’t let it beat you up.
Hitting walls and getting scars.
Only makes you who are.
No matter how much your heart is aching.
There is beauty in the breaking.

There's one thing I've learned & that's
the hardest part of moving forward.
is not looking back.

I am very interested and fascinated by
how everyone loves each other,
but no one really likes each other.
-The Perks of Being a Wallflower

She's been hurt many times before this.
You'd think it would be routine by now.
You'd think she wouldn't let it get to her.
But the truth is, she trusted you.

Part of me wishes we were like goldfish
They only have a 3-second memory
That way I would never remember who
you were Or what you did too me. You’d
just be this person I kept seeing,
but never knew.

A best friend is there when you have nothing
& more importantly when you feel like nothing.

if he was stupid enough to cheat on you,
he was dumb enough to get caught.

the worst part about being lied to is
knowing you werent worth the truth.

In the absence of hope, I need to stay in bed
and feel as if I might die today.

He`ll only break your heart, it`s a fact.
& even though I warn you, even though I guarantee
you that the boy will only hurt you terribly,
you`ll still pursue him, ain`t love grand?

"You can erase someone from your mind,
but getting them out of your heart is another story."

It's hard to get over people,
I mean really get over them.
You can start to have feelings for other people,
but it doesn't mean you're over them.
It just means you're moving on.

Don't make the mistake of
taking advantage of me again.
Because this time, I'm stronger
and there's more to me than you.

Keep your love for the world, & hope for a better tomorrow.
Even if it beats you down, everyday.

Life is made up of years that meant
nothing & memories that meant everything.

What hurts more than losing you is
knowing you're not fighting to keep me.

Sometimes you need to walk alone,
just to show that you can.

Walking down the halls,
each one of you on opposite sides,
ignoring each other, & looking away.
You know it shouldn't be this way.

'Cause on your calendar of events..
I'm last week.

They're talking about us,
So I guess we're doing something right.

We both know life is short.
Too short to waste a
single second with anyone who
doesn't appreciate and value you.

The most memorable people in life
are the people who loved you
when you weren't quite lovable.

I was taught to never take life for granted
to live a little, to love with everything I had
& to never give up

I'm not a little girl anymore. For anyone who's ever betrayed me, intentionally hurt me, or two-timed me, I'm not going to dwell on trying to make your life miserable & tell you that i'm going to fight you. No, better yet, I'm going to sit here & tell you that karma is a bitch & you will get your's.

A positive attitude may not solve all of your problems,
but it will annoy enough people to make it worth the effort.

Ten people everyday will tell you don't do this, don't do that,
&& if you listen to them, guess what you'll end up doing ?
Nothing. So do what you think is right & go with it.

I guess a big part of growing up is dealing with regret.
Swallowing your pride. There are some things in life
you can't go back and change, no matter how much
you want to.

Yeah, I'm the first to fall and the last to know.
Where'd you go?

Because I'm young and stupid
& really good at making bad decisions.

I like to feel his eyes on me when I look away.

Relationships are worth fighting for,
but not if you're the only one fighting.

But most of the time I think, that I just wasn't enough.

I'm fine. I mean, not that I'm over it, but little by little
it's getting easier to pretend it's easier,
which means easier might be right around the corner.

The real trouble with my sarcasm,
is that half the time when people think
I'm being sarcastic, I'm actually being quite sincere.

Of course I don’t like you. In fact, I hate you.
That’s why I stare at you all day.

So you failed. You wanna be really great?
Have the courage to fail big and stick around.
Make them wonder why you're still smiling.

Everyone knows; the louder the music, the bigger the heartbreak.

When people can walk away from you, let them walk. Don't try to talk another person into staying with you, loving you, calling you, caring about you, coming to see you, staying attached to you. When people can walk away, let them walk. Your destiny is never tied to anybody that left.

I knew things wouldn't work out, because they never really do.

//quotes from xanga

LAUGHTRIP sa jeep!

2008-04-21T22:24:00.000-07:00

kahapon, yung mga loka-loka kong kaibigan (di ko nga lam bakit ko sila naging kaibigan eeh? haha!)
papunta kame sa SM dahil nagkayayaan.

Habang nasa jeep kame..
may sumakay na babae (di ko sure. mukha syang tagilid i mean isa syang CHURVA. pero kahit pano mukhang babae naman. hahaha!)

maya maya..
KIM at JOYCE nagtatawanan.
AKO. napatingin dun sa babae(?) na nagbabasa.
AKO: (pabulong) "Kim, bakla ba yan?" sabay turo sa girl (?)
KIM: TAWANG MANDIRIGMA
nagtype sya sa CP ni joyce..
ang nakalagay..

"tignan mo yung babaeng nakagreen, nagrereview sya ang gamit nyang notebuk, ung notebuk ng sekyu!"

Ayan,tawa nanaman. siguro nadapa na ung babae(?) na un pagbaba nya ng jeep. hahahaha! ewan ko ba. GANYAN ANG ARAW ARAW kong kasama. Lahat napapansin nila! pati tuloy ako nahahawa na sa SAKIT nila. hahaha.

MASASAMA SILA pero atleast MAGAGANDA naman. (sabay bawi?) HAHAHA!

usual day. sigh

2008-04-21T21:50:00.000-07:00

Nung umaga. 7am ang start ng class ko. math pa un!
nako! uber lapit ko na sa school nagtraffic pa! watda! may quiz pa naman ako.
*sigh* but luckily, di ako na-late. haha! well, usual day.
QUIZ.
DISCUSSION.
at siyempre,
Sir Aquino: "first five plus five"

aun,nagkakagulo ang mga classmate ko para magka +5. hahaha.
then, 10am uwi na kame, ang aga.

bukas, wala kaming class, so GALA nanaman.
we're going to alabang town center tomorrow.
wala lang, magwiwindow shopping, maglalakad, magpapagod at magpapakasaya!

wala na nga kaming bakasyon eh,kaya dapat kunin ang pagkakataon pag walang klase! woooh!

5 men you should AVOID dating.

2008-04-21T21:24:00.000-07:00

hohoho.. just found this one.

The Mamma’s Boy
This guy probably lives with his mother, if not close enough for her to pop in for tea (every night). She will have helped him pick out his decor and there will be photos of her all over his apartment. He goes for Sunday dinner and has several cartons of homemade meals in the refrigerator that mom made for him.Why you should stay away: You will never live up to his mother and although he will love and cherish you forever he will take his mother’s side every time.How to get rid of him: Tell him you don’t like his mother.

The Body Builder
This guy will have photos of himself on every available space, along with his own home gym (even though he has a life time membership at the swanky one in town). He has all the latest gadgets and home entertainment systems.Why you should stay away: You will never see him as he is always down at the gym. He will spend more time in the bathroom then you. He collects trophies and likes one hanging off his arm.How to get rid of him: Tell him to give up the gym for you.

The Womanizer
This guy will treat you like a princess and is the perfect lover. He dresses well and is out to impress and impress he will (every woman he comes in contact with). He will, of course, have trouble remembering your name, with all the women he has on the go.Why You should stay away: His excuses for not showing up are getting more pathetic. You will have to compete with his phone as he has so many calls to return and text messages to answer.How to get rid of him: Tell him, “I use to be a man.”

The Workaholic
This man is going places, but will he be taking you with him? He is smartly dressed, has great taste in decor and eats at the finest restaurants. However, his work will always come first.Why you should stay away: You have to make an appointment to see him. He will take you to elegant dinner parties then leave you with strangers while he talks shop.How to get rid of him: Tell him, “I’m taking a year off to travel. Do you want to come?”

Your College Lecturer
He is probably older than you, more worldly and gets you a good grade.Why you should stay away: If anyone found out about you, they would say you slept your way to better grades. Plus, he would lose his job and possibly his teaching position.How to get rid of him: Tell him somebody is blackmailing you and if you don’t stop seeing him, they are going to report you.Of course, there are exceptions. For example, if “the body builder” knows how to give you the same type of attention he gives his body then this could potentially be a good thing (as long as you can handle other women trying to pick up on him). And if you are a workaholic that has no plans of changing then being in a relationship with another workaholic will allow the two of you to focus more on your careers while hopefully having some focus left for each other. If “mamma’s boy” mom loves you and you can get the same focus from the man as his mom gives then just maybe… it’s a stretch. Remember, it’s doubtful any of these men will change so it’s best not to try and change them.A good approach to take in wanting out of one of these relationships is to be honest. This may gain more respect. Tell “mamma’s boy” that he’s too focused on his mom. Tell the womanizer that you only have room in your life for a man that only has room for you. It’s doubtful that they’ll change, but at least they’ll know the real reason you don’t want to pursue a relationship.

blah! just li'l reminders^^

fun.FUN.fun day^^

2008-04-21T02:59:00.000-07:00

watta day! napakaligaya^^ haha..
actually, my girls and i were planning to go to SM on thursday..
FORTUNATELY, wala kaming CS for 2 days 'coz our prof will not be around for 2 days,
today(monday) and wednesday.haha. (at last, rest muna sa pagpprogram)
But, may make-up class parin on thursday and friday:[ *though it's ok.
we have to move our "gala", and that was moved today. hahaha. biglaan.
After announcing 'bout the good news, inutusan agad ako nung mga luka to text tina and joy.
at dahil ako'y masunurin, text naman agad ako :]
so basically,we waited for them then went straight ahead to SM.

PIZZA HUT. Dito kame kumain ng lunch.. and sobrang tawanan kahit 6 girls lang kame.
halos hindi na makain ung pagkain namen.

e kase naman! ung face nung waiter na nakalagay sa number ng order namen,
nakalagay sa gitna ng lamesa namen habang kumakaen kame. (parang may santo lang sa gitna namen na dinadasalan) LOL. then, of course, camwhoring! (part of habit, di pwedeng mawala sa scene :D)

after eating, deretso sa movie house. we watched "Manay po overload"
hahaha. it was a fun movie. can't help but to laugh and laugh from the beginning til the end:]

after watching a comedy, aun, window shopping.. we're looking for shirts and tops.
we raided almost all of the stalls there. haha. joyce and kim found cute shirts. unfortunately, i haven't found one for me :[
But it's aryt.. we're planning to go to alabang (ATC) on wednesday naman. haha!
we're so GALA. i don't know why. maybe because, we're just maximizing our vacant time. haha.. that's the hard thing when you're taking up summer class. errrr.

aryt then,bye. haha.

Blog fever..bakit kaya?!

2008-04-20T06:25:00.000-07:00

o yes, my first blog in this site! i dunno why, but i'm starting to like posting blogs (im not yet contented with my blogs at multiply.haha) i want to share every craps && fun fun moments in my life. huwaw^^ (my words for the day)

aryt.. blah blah blah..
so... where do i start?

ok ok ok..
nebermind!

midnight na inedit ko pa tong blog na to.
i still have my morning class tomorrow! i mean, mamaya!
waaah! napakabait ko talaga. di ko sana matulugan ang aking
klase bukas. 8:30am - 5pm pa naman un na walang patid. haha. crap.

well. makatulog na nga.
bukas na ulit makapagblog^^

| Perils of a Damsel |

I am complex in every way, yet you love me, accept my flaws and all that's why I love you

If yesterday blindfolds your eyes I'll bring you tomorrow let me see you smile

Little Taste of Heaven

I Lost More Than Virginity

Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame

Those simple words hit so hard they turned my whole world upside down

Inspire me with the smile like glow on your pretty face

But you came and changed my whole world now, i'm somewhere i've never been before.

I look at life on both sides now.

Stress. Love. Updates.

My 12-year-old brother sneak out.

Second Chances.

But you're just a boy, you don't understand how it feels to love a girl.

Special Teeth

It's been a while..

highlights of my hell week.

Dilemma

8/13 One Big Thank You

There are some who are unluckier than anyone else

a creepy psycho perverted old retard.

voodoo is love

MCL Unites with ABS-CBN

Gasping for air

Mapuan. Proud to be one?

I've just made a new blog

existence vs. essence

I was once like them. Really.

Bonding

reality

things said and things done are things gone

double celebration

The Damsel

Murphy's Law

it's been such a long time.

:: Summer temptations ::

:: Bored ::

Doodle + Tweetie = cuteness^^

mga GAHAMAN.

i don't give a damn.

anung meron sa CHEESEBURGER?

quotes to ponder

LAUGHTRIP sa jeep!

usual day. *sigh*

5 men you should AVOID dating.

fun.FUN.fun day^^

Blog fever..bakit kaya?!

usual day. sigh