Don't think that I'm the only one here to blame
HandWritten on; 2.10.2009
Life is too short to live.
To sudden, to quick,
like a vapor indeed.
When life meets death,
the latter chooses none.
-Kham S.
Yesterday was such a drag - until today.
Monday(02/09), at around 7 in the morning, we went to Bulacan to attend a close family friend's funeral. Obviously, i was absent for two consecutive days. I've missed lots of school-related stuffs definitely, darn. I'm lazy enough to torture my brain cells tomorrow, again. Okay, going back. We first went to our previous home at Bulacan and neighbor friend. After that, we went to my future mom-in-law's parlor. HAHA. It's a joke. Then, my bff asked for help about some photoshop stuffs so I went to their house since 8pm would be the start of the funeral service. I missed north so much, especially those people who are dear to my heart. My bff and I had an argument, it's a petty fight but we dealt with the subject seriously.
This morning, everybody prepared for the burial. It's such a heartbreaking view. I don't know what to feel, everything's mixed up. I felt pity for the mother and two daughters left behind by the late father. The eldest daughter was my best friend. Yes, it's was, and it's a long story to tell. The mother is my mom's close friend. I've been attached to their family way back when I was in my elementary years.
I'd never seen her weep like this before, i remember her as a funny, witty person. She keeps on repeating "i love you, loving" and other assurances that they will be alright though he's gone. Tough sight. Almost everyone's in the verge of crying. The pain and pity though I know they can get through it, but a family without a father will be difficult. And of course, i didn't escape that time from being a cry-baby, again. I just can't help not to shed tears at that very moment. My heart's not yet tough enough to face real life dramas or even hardcore TV dramas.
Seeing others sorrow is an added burden to me. I felt bad for them or more than, a heartbreak. Everyone's sorrowful yet we're all rejoicing. One of life's paradoxes. We all grieve for the lost of a friend's presence but we're rejoicing because we know he's heaven bound. He's not dead, he's just sleeping. Someday, we'll all meet again, soon. I know he found a haven of rest, a real peace in God's place.
To sudden, to quick,
like a vapor indeed.
When life meets death,
the latter chooses none.
-Kham S.
Yesterday was such a drag - until today.
Monday(02/09), at around 7 in the morning, we went to Bulacan to attend a close family friend's funeral. Obviously, i was absent for two consecutive days. I've missed lots of school-related stuffs definitely, darn. I'm lazy enough to torture my brain cells tomorrow, again. Okay, going back. We first went to our previous home at Bulacan and neighbor friend. After that, we went to my future mom-in-law's parlor. HAHA. It's a joke. Then, my bff asked for help about some photoshop stuffs so I went to their house since 8pm would be the start of the funeral service. I missed north so much, especially those people who are dear to my heart. My bff and I had an argument, it's a petty fight but we dealt with the subject seriously.
This morning, everybody prepared for the burial. It's such a heartbreaking view. I don't know what to feel, everything's mixed up. I felt pity for the mother and two daughters left behind by the late father. The eldest daughter was my best friend. Yes, it's was, and it's a long story to tell. The mother is my mom's close friend. I've been attached to their family way back when I was in my elementary years.
I'd never seen her weep like this before, i remember her as a funny, witty person. She keeps on repeating "i love you, loving" and other assurances that they will be alright though he's gone. Tough sight. Almost everyone's in the verge of crying. The pain and pity though I know they can get through it, but a family without a father will be difficult. And of course, i didn't escape that time from being a cry-baby, again. I just can't help not to shed tears at that very moment. My heart's not yet tough enough to face real life dramas or even hardcore TV dramas.
Seeing others sorrow is an added burden to me. I felt bad for them or more than, a heartbreak. Everyone's sorrowful yet we're all rejoicing. One of life's paradoxes. We all grieve for the lost of a friend's presence but we're rejoicing because we know he's heaven bound. He's not dead, he's just sleeping. Someday, we'll all meet again, soon. I know he found a haven of rest, a real peace in God's place.
We'll miss you sir Jeff.
Jeff Sanguir, born 1964 - died 2009
Jeff Sanguir, born 1964 - died 2009